I haven't been sleeping well lately. Lately meaning: years. (Thanks again Dad for the inherited case of insomnia.) When I wake up my brain immediately clicks on, ready to tackle issues. Issues I try to ignore during the day.
Issues like how we watch way too much TV, the kids in one room and me in another. I think it may be time to cancel our satellite service.
Issues like how we aren't reading books in spite of the pile from the library that is collecting dust on the shelf.
Issues like what a crummy housekeeper I am.
Issues like how pathetic my personal prayers and scripture study have been. Too busy watching TV I suppose.
Issues like saving for retirement and losing weight and trying new recipes and working harder to build better relationships with family and friends and cleaning that junk heap of a room and the End of Days and natural child birth and getting more involved in politics and being nicer to the neighbor kids and working harder to be a better Primary teacher and this and that and then some more of those...
And then I get overwhelmed and fall back asleep in a hopeless mess.
I have been having a difficult time keeping up in the blogging world (have you noticed?), partly because of my crummy, unbearably slow, irritatingly unreliable, terrible, no-good internet service and partly because of my level of ambition. I keep wondering...when this baby comes, is the effort and energy and time spent on the baby going to completely replace my blogging? And is that how it should be?
'Tis time to simplify I think. Now to have the chops to do it...