Missing My Mojo
When I was a teenager I regularly visited the same hair stylist to get my hair cut and styled. She was awesome! I could count on her to do exactly what I wanted if not better every single time.
And then she got pregnant. And something changed.
It started to become a game of hit and miss when I went in to get my routine hair cut. And as most of us are rather partial to what is going on on top of our heads, I wasn't game for Russian Roulette: Version Hair.
Back then I couldn't understand what had changed her hair cutting ability so drastically.
Now I get it.
You know what it was? It was those dang pregnancy hormones sucking the life out of her mojo.
My mojo is at an all time low. I think I kind of remember being a creative and funny blogger once upon a time. I believe I also enjoyed delving into the creative process and power of writing about more emotional and tender things too. On top of that, I am under the slight impression that I used to be a kind and generous sort as well.
Now with pregnancy hormones raging at an all time high, I feel like an ugly bloated monster of irritation, crankiness, and moot points with little to offer anyone.
Sure there are procreative powers at work in this bulging belly here, but GONE are the creative powers from my muddled mind up here. GONE is the energy and ambition to be...well, nice and tolerant and companionable. GONE is the me I like.
There are so many pretty pretty posts that I have been itching to write and express and share with the world, but once I sit down to write and surrender those precious particles to my keyboard, I am bombarded with...static.
What happened to me??? What happened to my mojo?
That dang brain-sucking, life-giving placenta.
I just hope that once it exits the premises, the damage won't be permanent.
Sadly, my hair dresser never recovered from its effects. Will I share the same fate?